Ever have one of those days where you wake up and don’t wish you were dead, but can’t for the life of you figure out why you’re alive? That’s where I am right now.

A guy I’ve known since I was three –we went to nursery school together– died in a car crash early Friday morning after he fell asleep behind the wheel while driving home from dropping some friends off in a town neighboring his own. I’ve been close to doing that before. Now I wonder why I’m still here and he’s not, or if there’s any rhyme or reason behind that sort of thing at all. I never knew him that well, but I’ve known him a long time. I have some good friends from my early childhood that knew him quite well. Our paths were so similar up until now.

Then I think about all the folks I know who have health issues I’ve been blessed never to have to deal with. Sometimes it seems like I’ve got everything I possibly could have going for me, yet somehow I’ve managed to drop the ball… hopelessly single, business on the brink, etc. etc. It can be challenging for me to believe that I’m doing as much as I should with everything I have, but I do know that I’m trying.

Well, no matter what I’m feeling like, the world continues to spin. I’ve recently learned that Hot D***a’s Food Network appearance is scheduled for November 8 at 9:30 pm. Keep your eyes peeled…